Monday, June 08, 2009

"I was once a doctor and

now I am a publisher, but I will do something new again. Life is too short. do what ever you want. Don't waste your time,"
a German guy, a friend of my another german friend whom I just had met a few hours ago the other night said out loud.
Over a dinner table, I was asked by him what I would do from now on.
" I don't know yet;" my response with a bit of hesitation.
Then he goes, " GREAT!" with a big smile.
"Ah....?" Unexpected totally, imagining that my response would give him a bad impression and he would change the subject immediately or talk to others at the table.
With my surprise, I made an excuse for myself. "...but I changed my professions so many times and I don't think i can do that any more....I am not young after all. So I will stay in the art businees."
Then, he said above remark and added, " I don't know what I would do next yet!"
My eyes were wide open to look at him to find there was a sense of hesitation, yet he looked certainly excited and confident.
Suddenly I was uplifted. He, a half stranger, looking like a tall and jumbo version of Mick Jagger, made me that night.... Yup! I am the one who judged myself who is sort of lost in life again, but anyone.

I am an "unknown" territory again. right, again and again. Blurry and cloudy, but luckily not rainy or stormy. Very calm and serene like a misty spring dawn on the seashore.

Life is multi dimensional (for me), not just one way road. I've taking detours, highways and off roads. Right now, I am not on any roads, wondering which roads I want to take.
I might not be consistent, yet one thing that has been consistent is that I choose to experience to know more about myself/ the meaning of life. I can't stop exploring life internally and externally.
" Life is too short." How could I forget about it? How could I take it for granted and live life like I never die? How could I have to be reminded by somebody who is almost a stranger? My soul must have been buried.
His remark was a message/reminder from the universe. Sounds corny, but I believe in it. That's a kind of thing that I feel presence of greater power. I always feel protected by it--I am not alone.

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